I'm just too shy, n i dont know why

I got this nice poem as a forward mail. As far as I remember it was from umesh.
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10 th Grade

As I sat there in English class,

I stared at the girl next to me.

She was my so called 'best friend'.

I stared at her long, silky hair,

and wished she was mine.

But she didn't notice me like that,

and I knew it. After class,

she walked up to me and asked me for

the notes she had missed the day before.

I handed them to her.

She said 'thanks' and gave me a kiss on the cheek.

I want to tell her, I want her to know

that I don't want to be just friends,

I love her but I'm just too shy,

and I don't know why.

11th grade

The phone rang. On the other end,

it was her. She was in tears,

mumbling on and on about how her

love had broke her heart.

She asked me to come over because

she didn't want to be alone, So I did.

As I sat next to her on the sofa,

I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine.

After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie,

and three bags of chips, she decided to go home.

She looked at me, said 'thanks' and gave me a kiss

on the cheek..

I want to tell her, I want her to know that

I don't want to be just friends,

I love her but I'm just too shy,

and I don't know why.

Senior year

One fine day she walked to my locker.

"My date is sick" she said, "hes not gonna go" well,

I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade,

we made a promise that if neither of us had dates,

we would go together just as 'best friends'.

So we did. That night, after everything was over,

I was standing at her front door step.

I stared at her as She smiled at me

and stared at me with her crystal eyes.

Then she said- "I had the best time, thanks!"

and gave me a kiss on the cheek.

I want to tell her,

I want her to know

that I don't want to be just friends,

I love her but I'm just too shy,

and I don't know why.

Graduation.

A day passed, then a week, then a month.

Before I could blink, it was graduation day.

I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel

up on stage to get her diploma.

I wanted her to be mine-but

she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it.

Before everyone went home,

she came to me in her smock and hat,

and cried as I hugged her.

Then she lifted her head from my shoulder

and said- 'you're my best friend, thanks' and

gave me a kiss on the cheek.

I want to tell her, I want her to know

that I don't want to be just friends,

I love her but I'm just too shy,

and I don't know why.

Marriage.

Now I sit in the pews of the church.

That girl is getting married now.

and drive off to her new life,

married to another man.

I wanted her to be mine,

but she didn't see me like that,

and I knew it.

But before she drove away,

she came to me and said 'you came !'.

She said 'thanks' and kissed me on the cheek.

I want her to know that

I don't want to be just friends,

I love her but I'm just too shy,

and I don't know why.

Death.

Years passed, I looked down at the coffin

of a girl who used to be my 'best friend'.

At the service, they read a diary entry

she had wrote in her high school years.

This is what it read:

"I stare at him wishing he was mine;

but he doesn't notice me like that,

and I know it. I want to tell him,

I want him to know that

I don't want to be just friends,

I love him but I'm just too shy,

and I don't know why.

I wish he would tell me he loved me !

.........'I wish I did too...'

Sher-o-shayari

Well, this one i found on iitb.h. Of course it involved some heavy weight urdu words so i am just posting only those ones which i could understood...but the stuff is really nice.
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'zaraa dariyaa ki teh tak tu pahunch jaane ki himmat kar...
to fir e doobne waale kinara hi kinara hai'
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tu kahe to zahar bhi pee len...qatil....
shart yeh hai ki bahon mein sambhAle koi'
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'rooh mein shAmil ho...ragon mein rawAn ho....
rooh mein shAmil ho....ragon mein rawAn ho....
jaane mere hathon ki lakiron mein kahAn ho....
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betAb ashque beshak palkon tak chale aana
lekin ye teri hud hai is hud se na gir jaana
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'chiragon ko aankhon mein mehfooz rakhna.....
chiragon ko aankhon mein mehfooz rakhna.....
badi door tak raat hi raat hogi...
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musafir hein hum bhi..musafir ho tum bhi...
kisi moad par fir mulaqaat hogi'
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'haan mein tumhein bhool jaane ki koshish karoonga.....
haan mein tumhein bhool jaane ki koshish karoonga....
tumse bhi ho sake....to na aana khayaal mein'
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Kaash dil ki awaz ka itna asar ho jaaye
Hum unhe yaad karen
Aur unhe khabar ho jaaye . <

Search in science

Gupta forwarded me a really good link. A search engine to locate scientific resources.

http://www.scirus.com

Holmes in Hospital

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Originally uploaded by sbjoshi.

That's achyut. We went today to meet him at the hospital. However, visiting him at the hospital did not change anything at all. We were as funny as we used to be. Fortunately, he did not have any serious enjuries but I really wonder whether I would be able to act serious even in that kind of situation. Another thing that I noticed was that I never got hospitalised, thank GOD!!

Anyways, how he earned his name as holmes? Well, that's a funny story. Once he posted a PJ on iitb.humour about some sher (lion) locking homes ( or holmes?!) in a village. I thought of initially describing the whole joke over here but I guess I am not that good at describing things. yeah, and that's why using this blog just like a scratch pad and keep on posting just anything :-).

Photo blogging

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Originally uploaded by sbjoshi.

I was just trying out how to upload photos on my blog. I guess this is a successfull experiment :-)

BDD(Binary Decision Diagram) library in java

I was just just googling for BDD and found this one.
http://javaddlib.sourceforge.net/jbdd/api.html

it's really good to see that java has libraries for almost everything. however, i really doubt about a BDD manipulation library in java. I guess a java implemetation would be running at a dead slow
speed for all but for tiny BDDs. Definitely, a C or C++ implementation would make more sense for
such computational intensive applications. One such implementation is by colorado university
http://vlsi.colorado.edu/~fabio/CUDD/

image gallery generator for linux

a good gallery generator can be found at
www.stanford.edu/~epop/igal/

another more sophisticated one is
http://jalbum.net/index.jsp

Google search through email

To search and receive Google search results thru email. Try the info
given below. Just send an email to google@capeclear.com and put the text
of your query in the "Subject" line.
You will receive the search results as email to your mail id.
Once you get the result for the searches... u can get the contents of a
URL using the below feature!! To receive the web content of a url, send
email to web@pagegetter.com and subject should contain the url whose
content has to be fetched.